WHAT A YEAR 2005 INTO 2006

Wow i have to tell you Jordan the last few days has been so verbal.
When he gets angry he knows what he is saying. The other night i told him to turn the stereo down and he said to me "lighten up mum", told his father "too piss off". He has this obsession with the channel Fox 8 on foxtel when the simpsons are on and by crikies if anyone changes the channel, he lets you know about it.

He has been answering the phone with "hello" then says "bye" and hangs up on the caller, i dont mind if its someone chasing money for a bill...lol.
Well he just spilt some drink all over the floor and is screaming
"oh my god, whats happened". So you can see why we are pretty happy with his progress when it comes to speech, though some of his verbal outbursts can be quite offensive to some peoples ears.

We had a wonderful news eve, with close family and the kids had a ball swimming, playing and listening to the adults belting out some kareoke classics. I lost my voice momentarily after but it was well worth it.
Poor hubby who worked that day fell asleep at 11pm, but i woke him up telling him his cousin was on the phone (he wasnt really) just to get him up.
Hubby has 3 days off again which the kids love and i am enjoying the respite so i can type on my blog again and catch up with everyone elses.

Jordan actually today is in a real shitty mood, probaly from the lack of enough sleep. Today its raining thank god after yesterday being a scorcher day of 43 degrees with the hotest winds ever. Too top it off our ducted aircon in the house decided to kark it, with the pool that didnt give us much relief either. My car aircon has run out of gas, the brakes need changing, what more could go wrong!
But on a sad note we found out last wednsday towards the end of the year on the 21st December, 5 days short of his 38th birthday, a great friend of ours who we hadnt actually seen for a few years, commited suicide.

He had been suffering for quite some time and just wish he would have found someone to talk too, if he had, he may be here still today. He was a happy, caring and life of the party sort of guy with everything going for him and never really showed any signs that he wanted to end everything. His sister who is one of my best friends along with family and friends are finding it hard to understand why he chose to take his life the way he did.

I write this because anyone out there reading this page and ever feels the way Alan did, to please seek help. Throughout life we often take things for granted and turn a blind eye, not really realising that this person you thought you knew so well would be feeling that way. I have friends that often talk about ending it all and i have learnt to always take their words seriously even if they say it too often. An ear to listen too is sometimes all they need, along with positive reassurance and let them know they are loved and if they did such a thing too think of all the people it would affect. Sometimes this may not be enough, but at the end of the day in your heart you know you did everything possible to prevent such a devastating act of self destruction and nothing you may have said or done would have prevented this from happening. I will say to Alan now, you can rest in peace and you will be sorely missed by everyone who's hearts you touched.